It’s wonderful to have you here with me today. Tomorrow I will be the mother of a one year old…. How on earth did that happen?! It’s like time went on forever but jumped forward when I blinked my eyes.
Beau Neely has brought us so much joy, and love, and panic, and comfort all in one little package. As I sit here remembering the moment I woke up Mr. K and told him we needed to go to the hospital, to me currently rocking in place, tearing up, and drinking a glass of wine, I can barely believe I have made it though this year with so many memories that fade so fast. I can’t really remember what it was like when I first heard his laugh, or what time of day it was when he first got sick. I do remember the feelings though. The feeling of “fake it til you make it”, the feeling of “I got this” and then, “No I don’t, what the heck was I thinking?!?!”. Our baby boy is one!
I’ll keep this brief but I’m sure when Mr. K gets home and sees me crying and going through pictures that I never got around to printing he will think, “Momma done gone crazy”.